Alejandra Paxcle

I once made a playlist with songs that had the title, I would die for you". Because of you...

My love was like a fire. Fire can keep you warm.  Fire can protect you. Fire can feed you. Over the years I tried to keep this fire alive.  But it takes the right kind of wood to  keep it burning. 

I have this skull tattoo. I used to tell people I got that tattoo because of several different reasons, but I never told anyone the real reason. If you have an older sister you can relate to this. I wanted something that we both shared, I wanted to emulate her. No matter how many times we wanted to kill each other. She was still my sister. She is my sister. Oh how I longed to be like her, marked like her.

When I fall in love it could take one second or it could take 33 days. You are special. It didn’t take a second glance, I was completely entranced. I immediately fell in love. I never knew love at first sight was a real thing. I never believed it until I saw you. It was hard to explain this feeling. But I don’t think I will ever feel something like that again...that unexplainable feeling. They say you fall in love 3 times in your life. I spent time and energy loving you, trying to make you my forever but at the end, you were my 3rd.

I want to give you love, but I don’t think I can right now. You want to give me three hearts, but I don’t think I can handle that right now. I can’t give you what you want. I can’t give you what you are longing for. I just want you to love me. To love me. Love me. Me.

You and I shared high moments of ecstasy and lows of somber. As I grew and molded into your grooves as we played this song called our love. Although, you got bored of this same song and dance, it continued to be my favorite. I badly wanted to make it work, obsessed with the idea of being each other's first love. Every good thing comes to an end. I’m just hoping this bitter world opens its arms of faith and give us the true love we both deserve.