The Pax-Mez-Line's

I always wanted a television family. The way some shows embellished these beautiful families would make me so jealous. It was all I ever wanted in life...a normal family. One time after watching an episode about a family tradition, I attempted to get my family involved. I started out small. Like, spaghetti Monday’s, etc... I wanted us to be just like those tv families. I asked my family members individually, because we were never gathered all in one room. They all looked at me weird and said, “No.” It was as if I was asking for too much. It was too much to ask for one day out of the week to sit and be happy together... one day out of the week to look forward to. Just one day, that’s all I asked. I realized that I was fantasizing and it would likely never happen. I’d never get my own close knit family who experienced more excitement than dismay at the thought of being together. Their responses made me feel like I didn’t belong, like an outcast. I dreamed of becoming part of a family that wanted to do those things together. Maybe I was placed with the wrong family... maybe my real family would come for me one day. The longer I thought, the more acceptance set in. My request was too much.. togetherness was too much...